Updated: Nov 27, 2018
You can't hit the ground running with that dead body on your back - people are starting to notice. Trying to breathe life back into those bones; a skeleton of a relationship that has long since taken its last breath. It makes me sad to see you like this - so desperate and hopeful. He's not coming back.
I know you've been trying to keep the memories alive, storing the dreams and plans you shared in it's rib cage like a locked box that only he has the key to open - when he's ready to revive those fragile bones.
You need to start letting go. I know the weight is getting hard to bare. No one else can compare. but they will. And until you no longer carry that heavy desire, you are only glorifying a beautiful liar. he was very beautiful. Holding onto these brittle bones is stifling your light.
Please don't let another year go by holding on with all your might.